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Friendships and bonds

2009-07-21T00:14:00.000-07:00

Friendships and bonds. Really, what are they built on? Time spent? Outings? There are so many things i want to say about this, but i just don't know how to put it out in words. Why are there so many complications to the world out there, even to something as simple as friendships and trust.

Firstly to start of, i would just like to say that i'm just being objective and not subjective in this post. This is really just how i feel about things, generally, and not towards individuals.

I feel that friendship, is not really about just time spent, but quality time spent. It's based on how much they trust each other, it's base on how much they know about each other. It's base on their knowledge on the personality and character of their friends... But why is it that people can say things like, I don't know what you're thinking anymore, or simply just turn away from a friendship. Is trust lost easily, and why can't people trust easily. I think even after saying this, I'm beginning to find that, I myself, though i trust easily, there's a certain extent in which i trust people. But nevertheless, i still trust. It's just recently, my heart has begun to harden, so much. I really got to start relying on God all over again. Things are so different, So many things have happen in my life, mostly about relationships. I think i just got to start all over.

There's this one quote which i heard of quite a few times, and i really believe in it, "The tighter you hold on to something, the easier it is to lose it.". Definitely, the disappointment and hurt will also be greater once it's lost. I learnt that a really painful way. It's just that, sometimes when things happen, you dun really take the time to think what you're suppose to do, but you just do whatever you think can save the situation. Well, it's time for a whole new change of mindsets towards things. What pastor preached last weekend about mindsets, is so so true. I believe it will be able to help me so much. Mindsets, I'm determined to change them!

God, I want to draw closer to you more than ever.
You're really the Lord over my life, the Majesty.
Your grace have saved me, even though i'm nothing but alived...

A second chance?

2009-06-30T07:23:00.000-07:00

What really is a second chance? People's perception of a second chance may be that, it's a chance which comes easily, even after failing the first time, or letting people down the first time, just like how game's work, where you can just simply restart even after you fail a certain mission. In this case, i'm not really talking about failing on doing something, but rather, when others are involved. I feel that sometimes, people really take this thing call the "second chance" for granted, by saying people, it includes myself. I remember asking for second chances, and blaming people for not giving me that second chance. But recently, i've been hearing a lot of stories and a lot of opinions people have of second chances. I begin to realise that, to give, or to have a second chance, is actually not that easy as people might have imagined.

A second chance, in this case, is a chance that comes after you blew the first, where someone may have already by disappointed. This cause the trust in that certain person to shake a little, no matter how close the two of you were. The shaken trust will definitely lead to some doubt the next time a task was to be given to you, or you were asked to help, a question will surface and that would be whether you're cut out for it, whether you're able to deliver the work, or whether will it be like the past, where you have failed to successfully do what you are requested for. The ability in you will be questioned, in other words.

To get to second chance back, i've realised that, the effort to get the trust back, is doubled the effort needed at the start. Hardwork is needed to let the person trust you again, to let the person have faith in you again.

When the second chance is really given, it really is quite the most important one. It will really determine whether you should be trusted still. This second chance, is where we have to work doubly hard too. To succeed in it.

Well, that's all i really thought about, and it's really subjected to opinions and perceptions. This relates to me. But all in all, try not to mess up the first time, so a second chance is never needed. =)

Sweet Salvation

2009-04-26T08:56:00.000-07:00

This thought just came to me, when i saw the first hand lifted up during altar call... Firstly, let me just apologize, cause i'm not suppose to have my eyes opened, and normally, i won't look around, but i just had the urge for this past service, and i happened to see the first hand up, and God dropped these two words into me. Sweet Salvation.
It's such a sweet gift from God, a gift of sacrifice. The Son of God came down and died for us. It is free, but don't take it for granted, cause it's the ultimate sacrifice. It's filled with the love of God, therefore it's sweetness! =)

What's Strength Without Weaknesses

2009-04-20T09:59:00.000-07:00

What's strength without weaknesses? This is a revelation Gabriel told me one of his CG members, which is kenneth, had. After he told me about it, i began pondering on it. Seriously, what's strength when you have no weakness at all. People find something that's a strength in you because they can't find it in anyone else, or rather, you are the few that they find this quality in. I had a thought, that people are not weak, they're just lacking in areas of their life.
We first have to know, what are we weak/lacking in, then will we be able to find the strength that we have, or to strengthen up those properties that we're lacking in.
My Weakness, My Strength, My GOD!
I choose to trust in this God of mine to bring me to a whole new level, to patch up areas in my life that i'm still lacking in. I know God will always be there.

Relationships?

2009-04-09T03:43:00.001-07:00

Lights Of Truth... Gab was just saying that my email add is pretty nice. I always always thought that my email was kind of child like, kind of like what some sec 1 or 2 would use. But when he said that to me, I just suddenly thought that, in life, sometimes it's the dim lights of the truth, that keeps us going. Yea, well, this is just a random thought that i have... Haha. Going to the main point of this post....

Relationship? What really is relationships? What are people's definition of relationships and why are there so many different definitions of relationships? I've read Gab's blog, and i found him sharing a little about his CG, a CG built with the foundation of loving people first. Zero backsliders... I feel what revelation i had after reading that post is, sometimes we focus too much on the word growth, that we miss out on the meaning behind it. We begin to push and push for growth, that we forget the fundamental thing about church is to really love people. I really think it's not that I have lost the heart of loving, but that i've focused on the wrong thing in my walk, that i have now turned tired. I feel that's really what i learnt from reading Gabriel's blog.

I feel that i really have to rely on God more, as i feel that i have been placing my hope on people too much. People may disappoint us, but God will never. God, help me....

Seasonal Changes

2009-03-29T14:24:00.000-07:00

I just remember what i wanted to blog about when Gabriel woke up and talk to me about CGs...

I guess that, a Christian Journey is really a seasonal thing. We always go in and out of a certain season, be it as a church, as a zone, as a CG or as an individual. We go through different things, different situations to grow in different areas, to let God deal with areas in our lifes that needs changes. At one period, my life was all about recognition, so i got to grow out of that, then the next, it was all about friends, but now, i feel, and not just me, but alot of my leaders and friends, that it's the season of breakthrough. I'm going through one of my toughest times in my Christian walk so far, where there are so many things in my life that i have to deal with, things i didn't thought about so much before.
People come in and out of my life easily, and sometimes, it's hard not to get influenced during the exchanges in speech, but what keeps me going, is knowing that, God put me through all these test, all these struggles, is to really test, and strengthen me on the inside.
Not just about strengthening my insides, but correcting my heart, and moulding it to be the way it should to be more Christ-like. A season of challenges, a season of test, and a season of constant breakthrough. My heart will be moulded, and i'll find my true destiny after this season, and i know that for sure. =) As for church wide, whenever i talk to Garrett and Wendy, they will always tell me that, our church is now going through season of weeding, where God takes out people, takes out things in our lifes, and see if we are able to cope with it or not. This is the season for the whole church to strengthen up, and after this, the next season is to breakthrough... As people start having breakthrough throughout the church, one by one, people will start growing, and as a whole church, we will really rise up. A church is made up by the people in it, so as we grow one by one, it means slowly, one by one, people start changing in some parts of the church and slowly, every part of the church has grown to a whole new level, and then things will start happening again.
I think that, it's really cycle season, something like in our natural world, where we have summer, spring, autumn, winter, and it will go back in a cycle. So what i meant is like, we will always go into the season of weeding once again. I think this is sort of like a revelation to me, such that i'll always be prepared to go into the battle to stay on this fight for God.... well, hope this helps. =) If any of you don't understand any parts, just ask me. I'll try my best to explain again. =)

Breakthroughs!

2009-03-29T11:14:00.000-07:00

Woah man, just felt like blogging a little today.

So many things have happened in my life since the start of this year. So so so fast, and it's already going to be the end of March already. Time really flies don't you think? Haha, there's just so much that has happen, and i don't know where to start from. But, to begin with, i won't even talk about everything that has happened... haha...
Well, first of to start this post, what i really want to do is to give thanks to God who have blessed me with good results while serving Him and building his kingdom. I got a 3.458 for this sem that have just passed, without really really studying a lot as i was really busying myself quite a bit. I'll use times that i'm free to really study, so dun accuse me of not studying. Haha. =)

Since the start of this year, i've known so much more people, and have really drawn closer to some people, whereas there is the opposite of things where i may have already forgotten some people, or that some distance may have been created between me and some of my friends. Things have been added on to me, and i've been trying to expand my capacity to really be able to handle things, what i can really say is, i'm tired, since the beginning of this year, till now, i'm really tired. I'm holding on to the one thing that i really look forward to the most, which is to be ministered to by God. I'm just waiting for God to say, "Well done, My son". What may have not realised is, God have been and always will be, beside me, saying exactly the thing that i have typed, thing is, i have never once slowed down, never once stay stilled to give God a chance to say it straight to me. I think sometimes we think things are so important that we run and continue running without stopping to take a break and speak to God, afraid that this break might cause something to fall or fail. But this isn't how God works. God really just wants us to run to Him with our problems, to run to Him to share with him like how a little kid would run home when something happens to seek comfort from his/her dad. This is how God wants us to be... God bothered, He bothered,to save us from our sins by sending Jesus, His one and only Son, to die for us on the cross, but are we bothered to stop, to listen, to accept that He is real... I think the word is bothered. If we really bother, i think great things can be done, if we bother, we will begin to know God more, if we bother, insecurities in people will be erased...

Things have really changed since the beginning of this year. First up, there's been a restructure recently... Well, I'm still in the same CG, so not much change for me. I want to grow, I want to be able to be a support to people, to pastors to leaders in the church. I want to leave this independant stage and be God dependant. I feel that i'm a person who knows how to say, but no actions are taking place. I really want to be a person who last this race with God's strength, to have revelations to share with people, and know how to lead my kids better, know how to get to the next point in life and know how to GROW!
I feel very tired too recently, but there is no better solution that i can think of, but ask for revelations from God, I have friends around me, great friends, but in the end, i still need revelations from God to run, to leave my weariness with Him and continue running. I can't let everything go just cause i'm tired or that i have issues. I'll just have to learn to cope as i run. I pray that i will really grow after this period. I really pray for a change of mindset, a refreshed physical body, and a renewed heart. A renewed passions for the kids... I've lost some of the things i was holding on to and things i was happy that i had. Out of all those things, what i really want is to really have the heart for the kids back, so that i'll be able to run, for the kids, and stay strong in God. and now that i know that God is a yes-God, things will start to happen all over again. I know this year will still be great. =)

GROW!!!

It's really a rough start of the year for me, and i really don't know how long this internal struggle within me will continue, but i guess i'll just have to endure it down till the end and ask for help along the way, as much as i can.

"So i lift my eyes to You Lord
In Your strength will i breakthrough Lord..."

2009-01-29T07:01:00.000-08:00

Well, Chinese New Year began... couldn't really sleep the night before, kept on tossing and turning, with another additional factor adding to it.... Anw, woke up, washed up and changed into my new clothes... I have just been waiting for this day since the beginning of the year... Well, new clothes new pants new shoes. YAY!!!!

Went to jurong for my first house visit and had lots to eat there. Second stop was to my mother's side grandma's place. There were alot of people there as usual, and i saw my closer cousin there. Stayed there for awhile before heading home. Took a little photos with my family...

To end of my day, went to catch a movie with my family. Movie's name "All's well end's well". Funny retarded show but a little touching. Romantic comedy. Haha.
Anw, second day, my relatvies started visiting my house. Got a little crowded, harrold said it was like chinatown. yeap. But it definitely was fun, and to top it up, there was this CUTE little baby. He was really really cute with great big eyes that someoen was jealous of... anw, whenever he saw gadget's(laptops and stuff), he opened his eyes so much more bigger. Haha, just adorable. =)

A picture of him! =)

Yeap, well, that marks the end of the second day of New Year... =)

I don't have photos for some of the events mentioned, but, have fun reading! haha. It's a lot of words....

2009-01-29T06:47:00.000-08:00

Then the following week...
nothing much i can remember too, xept that it was a week filled with reunion dinners and fun... Well, also the anticipation of the Lunar New Year that's coming right ahead... Anw, had my first reunion dinner with the zone on Tuesday. Was kinda hectic at first as we were rushin around and tryin to set up the place, but in the end we settled with setting it up in the audi. Other than that, we found out that SOW was having their graduation too. During the meal, we went over to their side to take some food too and their they came over for ours too. Haha, all in all, everyone's happy! =) Then we played blind mice as a zone and the forfeit was kinda funny. haha. Shall not embarrass those who did it. Then the rest went to bowl while i went home...

On thurs, had an overnight meeting at Yishun Satellite Church with Mae Ann, and a few other teachers. Was kind of fun and a new experience to me. After the meeting, we went to have dinner and after that, some of them played twister and then we watch the movie "I am Legend" before sleeping, though halfway throughout the rest were already sleeping xept me and jolie...
TWISTERS!!!!

Didn't felt like waking up the next day though... but had to drag myself to school.... But i constantly fell asleep in school, so not much diff, just going for the attendance... haha..
Then in the evening, it was Children church Reunion dinner at my place. At the beginning i was stressing a few things. Firstly, were the things ready, second, will the guards at my place find trouble with us. Anw, i didn cared and played when the rest came. We had water captain ball first, and true enough, the guards came scolding. shall not talk about the details of it, just that it was quite unpleasant.... After the fun, we washed up and went to have our dinner. I went into the function room and saw a table load of food.... this included cooked food from the "zi char" stall and food that we were bout to cook ourselves with the steamboats....
FOOD!!

Alright, then yeesiong and yolanda were sort of the hosts for the day and they came up with the "speak chinese only" rule for about half an hour of the dinner as it was the Lunar New Year... Yeap, well, the people did have fun. Sadly, the guards came again soon after and said it was times up and we had to surrender the function room back. Well, then we went to the 5 floor open air garden with ALL our stuff...which included 4 steamboat pots and alot of uncooked food left... There, we started playing blind mice, and sadly, the "Blue housefly" or so the guard calls himself, came for another visit, saying the a resident complain of activities going on on the rooftop garden....
Blind Mice, and Guess who was IT?

Well, no choice, so all of us made way to my house. Along the way, alot of them had to leave so i was busy bringing people out of the estate. When i went back home, i was shock to see people sitting outside my house in the lift lobby. I went back into my house and saw the whole dining table filled with food.... Then the rest started coming in and we started packing up, while eating whatever we can and throwing whatever we can't eat.... Then yeesiong and yolanda played the scissors paper stone game and loser has to eat a scoop of rice... Well, in the end they gave up and threw it away too.... After the pack up, it was too late and a few of them stayed over again while vicki and yolanda left. I went into my room to rest awhile but end up falling asleep and when i woke up, everyone's not around anymore... lol. They didn't even wake me up...
Random Fun at my place...

Supposedly to be Generation Builders (XiaoYu), Obed Edom(Yeesiong) and 300(Yolanda)
Apparently, XiaoYu didn't know what to do for the actions, so she just gave a twist....

Guess who took this glamorous photo of Elaine! =)

Then after i prepared myself and went out to bugis to have cg. After cg, had lunch with wendy and we went to a restaurant called shokudou... it's a japanese pasta shop. Had alot of fun eating with the gang and, it really felt like a cg all over again, and it's been a long time since i really sat down, have a meal and have fun with my cg.... After that, head back to PGSM and watch a little of red cliff before making my way home to have dinner with me family. Had a little fun with my younger cousins. Haven't played with them for quite some time too.
On Sunday, had a little dinner with my immediate family. Then countdown to Lunar New Year. That's just the start....

2009-01-29T06:10:00.000-08:00

The Lunar New Year has come, or rather, came. Well, but for poly students like me, it's just two days of extra holidays, and after that, we will have to start studying for the upcoming End of Terms already. That is if they do study... For one i sure do. Well, i have just been telling one of my friend how i wanna blog but no one do comes by and how lazy i am to. Haha. There's just so many things to say since the last time i posted.

Well, let's just start with the one interesting week i had...from the 12 of jan to the 18 of jan
Well, Monday was the usual with the 2 periods of jap class, just that this time, i was having my written test. It almost killed me.
The most exciting day i would say, is Tuesday. That day, i was planning to have a haircut after school, but they called me telling me that the hair stylist will not be free during that timeslot, so i felt super sianed and headed homw after school. But as i was at the bus stop, i saw Yolanda and she ran over to me. The bus stop was so crowded as it was the end of the school and yet she could make her way to me in labout 10 seconds, maybe less... And mind you, i wasn't very near her. Anw, she asked me to go to the meeting with her. So i went as i had nothing to do, but halfway, Mae Ann called and we were asked to go to the airport, before going, we were suppose to print a photo. We were going there to send someone off, migrating, and may not be coming back. So we knew the news at about 7, guess what time the person was suppose to check in....

at 8.....
And we were somewhere at bishan, without the photo... So we got down the bus and took a cab to Bishan, and we learnt that the photo would take at least 30 mins to develop, but yolanda manage to talk to the lady into 15 mins. By the time the photo was out, it was already about 740. We flagged for another cab and rushed to the airport. On the way, yo was writing down the messages onto a piece of paper and behind the frame. We reached at about 815, and i ran in to pass the photo to her. It was quite a sad scene though, as almost her whole cell group was there and most were crying.... alright. So the tough part was finally over when she was finally out of sight. Then we went to have our meeting at TCC. Haha, my first time ever in tcc, and it was quite fun. We sat there, joked a little, talk a little bout serious stuff before going into the meeting. When the meeting started, it was time for me to go, and i actually missed my last train home by 10 secs....So i had to take the longer route home...Well... the rest is kinda boring so i shall just end tuesday here... All i have to say is, it definitely is God planned...

Weds....
I finally get to get a haircut.... I miscalculate the time and reached 2 hours earlier than the time i reserved... But i met stephanie, siok mei and nelson there.... talked and joked around. Then the stylist was free and i got my haircut earlier and i was over joyed.... at least i didn have to wait the full 2 hours... Soon after, there's this lady that came in and a huge commotion took place as they argued about her hair.... Don't wanna talk too much bout it... Well, after my haircut, went for a walk around far east with the other 3 and then went home, Wendy saw me on my way home and sms-ed me.... =)

The rest of the week....well, can't remember much too. Haha. Then the normal weekends with the services.. Oh, and i passed sound fold-back basic class. =)

New Year, New Vision...The Best has yet to be...

2009-01-05T18:11:00.000-08:00

So many things have happen since the last time i post. I am just too lazy to post. Then again, this is just a space for me to rant and just to keep track of what have happened in my life. Well, here we go...

Let's just start wit Christmas cause i cant remember anything before that. Christmas was a blast. I mean, that week alone, there were 7 service to attend. Actually there was only 6, 2 on Christmas Eve, 1 on Christmas, 1 on Saturday, and 2 on Sunday(Yishun Satellite church). But on Sunday, the response to the new opening and the theme of the day was so great, that we had to split service 2 into 2 and 3 cause there was just too many people. So thus, i attend a total of 7 services... Tiring but fulfilling i would say. haha. =) It's just so great to see so many people coming together to celebrate Jesus's Birthday. The Yishun satellite church was also great, so many people came to the place. Though it's small, the presence was very thick, people who were there can say Amen to that. All the kids were just pouring out their hearts to God and really , that drew the presence into the place. The song we sung was a great song too. It's "How could i live" The lyrics are very meaningful. Anyways, we had so much fun too, while playing with the dunking machine, foam pool and so much more. The kids are so excited about it. I have no pictures for you, didn take any. Well, that concludes the week of Christmas.

Then New Year arrived... Well, during the Christmas period, i had the feeling that i just had to make cards for people so i busied myself with cards the times when i didn go to church. Hope people are touched by them. HAHA! Well, then came New Year and i was looking forward to staying over in church so much. But not much people stayed and most of those that stayed were kinda half dead too. Was thinking of going to Ryan Yap's house but felt that it may be a little weird cause his CG was going too so... Yea. In the end i fell asleep at about 5 plus and woke up at 7 plus. Took bus home, bathed and went to pack up my mountain loads of stuff the i stores since O levels. Imagine, all the secondary school stuff piled up for 1 year plus, adding on to that is my poly sem 1 stuff. haha. Disastor is what i would say. Anyways, pictures of New Year are not with me yet. They are scattered all around with people so i am going to each and evryone of the people and taking it from them, so please hold on. Btw, i just rmb i took photos during Christmas, the one provided by church, but they haven't send me yet so... I am typing it here cause i am too lazy to go up to edit the things that i typed. HAHA!

Well, the the first service of the New Year have arrived on Saturday and i was on Children church. Mae Ann preached about Real Friend, qualities of one and so on. I think i needed that sermon a long time ago. But well, i have it now. On Sunday, I woke up early just to go to yishun satellite church. It was great, like i said, the presence is really strong in that place, it's very very touching to see the kids worshipping God. It was just great.
Anyway,went back to church after that, and sat in for service. After praise and worship, they were annoucing the Team of the Year award. Weize, sitting beside me, was going like "Children church children church children church...". Then after the drun roll pastor really said Children church. I was about to jump of my sit but i controlled a little and when the rest all stood up then i stood. I was really happy. Though we didn't do all the work for the award, i can say that the Children Church teachers really work hard. The best and more rewarding reward, is the attendance breakthrough that Children Church had. We had a attendance of 188 over the last week of New Year. It was great.

Alright, then after that, school started for me, and i seriously dread that. Well, but i still have to go.... Anwm first day and school starts at 8 and ends at 8 already. Do you think i would look forward to going to school? But well, the fourth lesson, i got back my results for my mathematics module, and i got the third highest, I was over the moon. But i still dread the rest of the papers as my econs teacher told us through email that most of us failed. Then i got my Engineering Mechanics paper back, and i got a 90%. It wasn't as good as i had expected but well i could work harder for the end of semester paper. Well, then i found out that next week may be my jap written test. SIAN!!!! ok, i shall use less of that word. Well, another new day, Tuesday, the second lesson is my Electrical Technology and Electronics, and i got back my paper. I did better than i expected, an 84 for the paper. I was so afriad for it before the paper that time. Then was my econs lessons, I got back my paper and found out i got a 60. Though not good, but i did manage to pass. I'm glad i did well. And i know it was God that saw me through all these paper. =)
Well, i am really blessed the past year, but i know the best has yet to be. The next year will be better. =)

2008-12-07T07:34:00.000-08:00

Back!
Well, i feel super tired and i really dun feel like talking about anything of the past events but...let's just say that Nick Vujicic was great, Pastor Kong was even greater, and Asia conference just made it wonderful. I was even serving in Asia conference, the first ever. HAHA!
Well, right after the conference it was the camp, and boy was it good. We had so much fun, playing with the kids, having fun together with water bombs and water games. I really love the kids, seeing how pure they are and all. Sometimes i really just touches my heart when i see them worship. I think that's the second best thing in Children church that i know of. The first i would have to say is to see the kids life being transformed. Other than getting to know the kids more, i got to know each and every teacher more, like how retarded the combination of Pei Wei and Veluriya can be, or how Timo and Gab are super uncle and much more. Other than that, i got to know more zone F people more too. People like Chun Keat(maybe spelt wrongly), Wayne, Marcus, Lum Bin, Shawn and so on. I feel that camps are a must go for all the children church teachers man. Haha! Anyways, no photos from my side as, i am such a loner with no one to take photos with...HAHA! just kidding, anw, i am not really the photogenic type of person so, yeap! haha. =)
I think this period is the season to stretch my capacity, take more things. For my CG side, i am very sad to say, that I am the only one left from the 4 who went through and supported each other and jiayang through the tough times to where we are now. The rest are being deployed to other CGs. Man, this is going to be tough. There's a lack, an increase is needed! I need to grow out of my capacity and all man! Discipleship class was just great with Lynette. She shared with us alot of stories about Pastors and really made us much much more connected to Pastors now. I simply love my pastors. I believe i will really grow in this church under Pastor How and Pastor Lia. The culture and everything. =)

Father Lord,
I choose... to believe in You.
I choose to believe in the plan you have for me.
I will not fall from it,
I will not drift away from you,
I will have faith like a child, and run to You,
run into Your arms when You are near.
Father, just show me. Give me a vision,
give me faith!
I love you God,
I thank You.
Amen!

2008-12-01T01:50:00.000-08:00

Hey! I am really really sorry to disappoint all those who have come in here to look for something new(if there is any) and not find any. Thing is, it really get's tired trying to update when it feels as though no one is visiting so, no point. Haha. Well, anyway, it's been a awesome awesome two weeks. Had Asia Conference and had Children Church Camp. I just love being able to grow in the house of God.
Not going to say much, i am only using this little 10 minutes i have before i go to class to post something. I will post in details next time about the camp and the conference, but this time, i didn't take the photos, Vel did. So i will make sure i get it from her and do up an EXCITING post for anyone who wants to read it. I will try my best to do up an interesting one and not like an essay. HAHA. Well, being exciting and awesome the two weeks have been, it has also been the most tiring period so far into this year. And what's more the common tests are just next week. Well, I will try my best to study, and leave the rest me my Father in Heaven. =)

I just love God.

Well, there are so many upcoming events but i am so looking forward to one, and that is the birthday of JESUS CHRIST! =)
Well, talk more again next time.

Lord, i really pray for my studies,
that You will guide me as i study for the test,
that You will help me retain all that i read,
that i can be able to use my studies to glorify You.
Lord, All in all, i just want to thank you,
for great Pastors,Leaders, and Friends you have place in my life.
they have helped my alot in this journey with You.
And Father, I just want to say that i love you...
Amen.

2008-10-06T15:14:00.000-07:00

Just finish watching Facing the Giants. Let's just say it was just what i need as a reminder. I didn't know that this show was dedicated so much to God. There are so many life experiences that we can learn from that show. I have always heard of the story, or been shown part of the story where this guy manage to do the death crawl through the whole field, but after watching the whole movie, things just started changing. Actually i was feeling very exhausted already, even talking on msn made me want to fall asleep, but when this movie got to a more exciting and spiritual part, it is sort of like, my exhaustion just faded away. I don't even feel like sleeping at that time. I was just totally engrossed in the movie. It really talk so much about life experiences. After watching the movie, i am more convicted to read the bible. For fellow Christians out there, if you haven't caught this movie yet, be sure to catch it. For non Christians, well, you can still catch it and learn it as a life experience, i mean, things that are talked about in Christianity are also applicable for non-Christians lifes. =)

"When we win, we praise God,
When we lose, we still praise God..."

2008-10-06T13:22:00.000-07:00

Felt i haven't been visiting blogs for a long time so i decided to drop by a few of my friends blog. I chanced upon Gentson's blog, and I really can't help but agree with him, "Out of sight, out of mind". But i really do hope he still remembers this friend that he had. Haha. I still remember there was this once when he came to my house after school one day, and we figured that both of us were so similar in so many areas, and to think Ms Goh, our physics teacher in secondary school said that we even looked like brother's. Those were the days, and now that i think about it, i feel that i have been complaining about my life too much. To think that i had so many great friends at that time but i didn't cherish them. The thought itself really makes me crumble.
Another note, after visiting some of my friend's blogs, i begin to feel that this thing called relationship is such a fragile thing. It's not just in blogs that i see all this, but also in the problems that some of my friends face. Are relationships made to be so fragile in nature?
Somehow i really miss some of my friends from sec school. It may sound weird coming from a person who keeps on saying that he hates his secondary school, but i just miss the days where we really just sit down during breaks and evrything just to chit chat and play bball after school. Even our quarrels and arguments don't last for more than 1 week. It's like we have a mutual understanding for each other. Things are so much different now that we are in our seperate lifes, in our jc-s or polys. I think i really missed alot of opportunities. So many relationship could have been built up and kept strong in my life, but i chose to give it up, i am such a fool. HEY GENTSON, if you are reading this by any chance, let's go out soon. =)

Anyways, on a lighter note, i am still in church. I remember Furong telling this, that we have come to this point, that no matter what happens, we will not leave church anymore. It's really surprising that now when i think of backsliders, i begin to think of reasons why they backslided, but i always thought of none. Well, enough about backsliders, i feel that, this is really the season for me to grow, grow like never before, grow to be evry single leader that i can be. I am not sayin this out of pride nor am i trying to make myself sound great, but i feel that this is what God place in me. It came in directly to my heart when Pastor talked about it during service last Sunday. "....To be a pastorial leader, to be a children church leader, to be a worship leader, to be an ops leader..." Yes, it will happen, it will come to pass. All i need now, i feel, is really the heart to be able to love people like how God love us, a heart that can always come through everything and pull me back from lazyness, pull me back from any reasons i have to not do anything to help church grow, and to really be kept on track, and run along side my leaders and Pastors. I am really in love with God. I really can't think of life without Him. Yes, i admit that sometimes this may not be the life i want, but God didn't promise us a bed of roses when we came to him. I may keep on complaining about my life, but truth to be told, i am really thankful for this life of mine. A few reason why i am still complaining, is not what God didn't do, but rather, what I didn't do, that cause me to lose so many opportunities. I have lost so many souls that i can save, and now whenever i think of it, i see their bloods on my hands. Nevermind, from here on, there will definitely still be chances, and this time, i will grab them as they come.

Well, i shall stop here for now. I really really look forward, to seeing my friends again.

Events that are coming up! :
Pastor Kong (CHC) - 7-9 November 2008
Nick Vujicic - 4 & 5 November 2008

Lots more, just a little too lazy to go dig them out. HAHA. Anyways, i really do urge people to come for the Nick Vujicic one. It will really be a power pack sermon. BELIEVE ME!!! =)

2008-09-04T22:26:00.000-07:00

Man, havent posted in like, 2 months. Now blogging seems alien to me. HAHA. Well, had a powerpack week, with a great weekend and happening weekdays. Pastor Lia preached on Sat, and she was talking about having a Revelation of Sin. I felt so impacted by it as, I have always struggled with so many sins in life, that sometimes i would lose myself in feeling condemned by it. I felt that i really spoke to me and from now on, I will look at it from another direction. =)
On Sunday, Pastor Tan Ye Peng came to hoGc to preach again, this time preaching about Life and Light. He talked about having the foundation of a church and, why man were created first and all. Those who are reading this post without having heard the sermon, I would like to ask of you not to think that Christianity is a sexist religion. No it isn't. Guys have their role in this world and so do females, just that this sermon is more for the guys, ok? =) Pastor Tan is a very annointed preacher (and so are Pastor How and Lia). He talked about having purpose, which determines potential of a thing, and the potential of a thing also reveals it's purpose. He also said that men, were create to do 5 things in the world. It was just a great sermon which we need to hear constantly to refresh ourselves. =)
Anw, following that was Monday, and there was a Children Church Event going on that day, so we went down early to prepare stuff and waited for the kids to come. Though the number of kids that came weren't the desired number, but we still had fun and we got to know each and every kid a whole lot better. This could be one of the good points about being in small groups. We had loads of fun too, the teachers as well as the kids.

This photo was taken at the beginning of the day when the kids came in.LUNCH TIME!!!!!
Random Fun after LUNCH!!!

Jolly Fishing time
"I'm gonna hit 'em all"
Marble Fishing
"NO NO!! Not my face, anything but my face!!!"Can you feel the intensity...
"I shoot you ah"
"YAY"
"Come on come on, let's pack up"
"OK, so what didja learn?"SLACKERS!!

Haha, that's about all. After that i had my zone revival night. I'll talk about it in another post then. =)

2008-07-20T08:34:00.000-07:00

Another week, another great week! haha. =) Well, nothing very interesting till Thursday, went to lsc and all. In case you don't know what lsc is, it's a child care centre at hougang where we go down to have fun and at the same time teach the kids and all. Anw, was down at lsc, and i was asked to help them packs the books that were delivered from the library to them. Well, was packing when bro fabian came and they had assembly. To them, assembly is like a mini service. Observed their service and all. Main thing is, bro Fabian asked me to observe what's different from service in our church. Traveled to church after awhile and was talkin to bro Fabian in his car. I learned so much. Like how to handle kids in a group and all. And he was sharing with me about being idealistic and realistic at the same time, and how to anchor down our ideals while being realistic when we are older. Sometimes i feel i can really learn alot when i go to church. I just love my God, my church, my pastors and leader and my friends !! =)
Well, went for church builder service on friday, and i got to say, pastor Lia is just wonderful. =) Preached a magnificent service on the qualities of a church builder and was really blessed and impacted. haha. Well, didn really wanted to go home and in the end, i dragged time till i missed the last train. Man, so i cabbed with keegan to lavender where i alighted and he continued to boon lay. LoL.

Yea.

Anw, i typed this like months ago, and only posted it on the 5 of september. LOL. =) So i kinda forget all ab0ut the events that have past. HAHA!!

2008-07-11T06:07:00.000-07:00

Haha, another week. Though it have been great since last week. I feel I have grown alot during this two week, though it's not for me to say. HAHA! Well, it is like any other week, but i just felt that I had God with me throughout this week. It's like, i have been smiling as I walked the streets this week, listening to great Christian songs. I think people may think i am nuts but well, I know what it really is. haha. I feel my relationship with people have also become better. I just love church so much now. Haha. Anw, the reason why is, I just felt God remind me something, and I just made my mind up. Haha, and i am going to be living for Him from now on, evrything i do. =)
Had great fellowship yesterday and today, talked to my cg-mates, and church mates. Haha. I just don't know what to talk about anymore. Haha. =)

Lord, i thank You for the smile you bring my face,
the joy you placed in my heart,
and the friends you placed in my life.
I pray,that i will just keep growing,
to be a support to pastors and leaders. =)

2008-07-01T08:00:00.000-07:00

Greatest Love:
The greatest love ever known, You are,
You called me by close to You, safe in Your arms,
Eternal life You placed inside my heart,
You are forever.

more than a song we bring to You our God,
Let all our lives always sing of who You are,
Eternal life You placed inside my heart,
You are forever,

Chorus
Cause Your love is greater than I know,
Because of Your cry salvation flows,
Into Your arms I'll run again,
Glory to You x2

Bridge
Glory, Glory to You x3
We cry out x2

2008-07-01T07:52:00.001-07:00

Awaken my heart,
Awaken my soul,
Awaken this life for You oh God....

2008-06-29T23:44:00.000-07:00

Hey hey, too any readers out there. LOL! haha. Yea yea, another great week has past. Man, i am growing older. Haha. But at least it's great to know that my church is growing UP to be a generation never seen before. =) Anw, on friday, after having dinner, Annlynn called me to go for PGSM preview. I mean, her timing couldn be any better. It was like i just put my untensils down and, "Zzzzz,Zzzz,Zzzz" My phone rang. Haha! man man. Anw, PGSM preview was great, I mean, I didn know so much about Singapore's market before and all. Haha. Well, it just spiked my interested in business more and more. Haha. Well, after the preview, hung out around for while and got to chat with Pastor How. Haha. Everytime after service, it's so difficult to talk to Pastors as he would be so busy around. Haha. Anw, its great, and....and...LOL! Speechless. HAHA! Well, went for children church on sat, we played games for a whole HOUR!!! haha. There was just so little time for word alrdy and though Sister Mae Ann was worried, she kept her composure. Haha, I wanna learn how to do that man. =) Anw, had a real great time in children church and after that had some children church meeting. Yea. We now have systems, and there is a benchmark that we can all reach for now! Friendly competition is always good but we are still always one big family right iGen? haha. =) Had some fun after we split into our own teams and played some games. After that got to take some pictures and, all in all, it was fun! =) Goin to get the pics from yolanda soon. haha. Something happened after that though, Aerina lost her wallet. man, i just couldn do anything to console her. Felt so helpless. =( Oh, another note, i heard Pastor Josh Kelsey was powerful, and i heard him talk about The Next Day. Pastor How said Pastor Josh Kelsey is powerful in preaching about the next day. The power lies in The Next Day as it's about what we are goin to do, The Next Day. haha. =) i wished i was in that service. Anw, went for prayer meeting before service on sunday. Haha, and Pastor Lia was leading the prayer meet and we are praying for what type of 1400 do we want. I just felt it was the right thing, as we should all be specific in the people we are bringing. Everyone can bring new friends, it's the type of new friends that make things different.Oh, and Pastor Lia talked about meeting true friends in church too and i thought of a certain someone. HAHA!!! Thanks Best Friend! lol. Sat in for service, and i just gotta admit, Pastor Josh Kelsey is great, and know we all know, that God knows our name! =) Pastor Josh MUST come back someday again. Oh, and he was also saying that if he was to stay in Singapore, he would definitely make Heart of God Church his home. =) Yea man, I just love hoGc. =) Anw, I bought the Audio CD AWAKEN! by Christian City Church Oxford Falls, where Pastor Josh Kelsey comes from. It's a great album. Simply fantastic. Haha. But i know Heart of God Church is also goin to produce lotsa great musics too. ON OUR OWN! =)
Anw, there are 5 songs inside, 1- intro, 2- For This Time, 3-Break Me Down, 4-Greatest Love and finally 5- AWAKEN!!!! haha. All the songs are very nice. I love Greatest Love and Awaken exceptionally more. Haha.

Went for zone restructuring after that, and there's not much change to E4 but Keegan is transfered to be CGL of E50. Haha. We will miss you keegan.

Lord, I just come to You with thanksgiving,
Thanks You for the great friends You have placed in my life,
Great Pastors who really care for us,
Thanks You for my Leaders who are always there.
And thank You for giving me a best friend whom i prayed for so long ago.
Thank You!
I pray all this is Jesus's name,
AMEN!!!

2008-06-24T10:35:00.000-07:00

Oh yea, i forgot to mention it in the previous post, that, while playin with the kids, i fell on the ground. That's not the main part, main part was when i was sittin up, i kinda forget my phone was in my back pocket and i sat on it. one third of the screen cracked! lol, but it has been one week after that, guess what, the crack extended to FULL SCREEN!!!! haha.
Ok, anw, see, maintaining a blog is such hard work, and its harder when you got people tagging you asking you to POST!POST!POST!. Roflmao. Anw, let's just talk about general stuff shall we? haha. I am getting tired of talkin about my daily life, i mean, whose interested to know man. LOL! Oh, and i did Director 1 for one song on Sunday!! I mean, OMG!!!! I was so nervous on that day that my palms are almost dripping with sweat! lol. Anw, it was a great experience, that kinda pressure and all. haha. Well, school officially reopens after that.
Read Jiayang's blog, the post about trustin. I seriously agree with him, cause trusting people really feels great. But this world is so complicated that people are thinking of their own needs and survival. lol. Nothing wrong with that but i feel that's what makes this world sucha competitive one. The power struggles and all. Haiz. Side-track, I am learning the guitar for less than a week, and one of my friend is kind enough to dig out a guitar to lead me, much thanks! I felt kinda accomplished as i learnt a song from Jiayang, and learnt another on my own! haha. That's all for now i guess. Haha.

THOUGHTS!
lol, i figured it would be weird if i added this right into my rants so might as well separate them. =)
Man, sometimes i really feel as though we humans are worried of the littlest possible things around.I know that as i am recently stressed up by all the little details around me. Haha. So i began thinkin, how i am gonna achieve the vision i have, if i am stuck here. I have to move as there are great things that i can do in the Kingdom of God! haha. Let's all work for it guys! =)
Lord, i just thank You for all the days in my life,
thanks You for great friends,
great leaders, great pastors.
Lord, i just lay all my problems in Your hands.
With You, everything is possible. =)
I pray all this in Jesus's name,
AMEN!

2008-06-17T09:30:00.001-07:00

I have been thinking about it whenever i listen to the song Follow by Youth Alive. I just simply love the bridge of the song:
I will Not turn from Your ways,
Jesus I'm Yours all my days,
I'll go wherever You will go...
It never fails to touch my heart whenever i think of this part of the song. At the same time, it never fails to wreck my heart too. It touches my heart as, it will be in my heart from now on, that i will never leave this path that I have chosen to serve the Lord all of my days. But it wrecks my heart whenever I think about all the backsliders who have been in church with me once upon a time, when they have sung this song before. I treat that part of the song like a vow, a promise made to God, that we will not ever turn from His way and we will go wherever He goes. But from now on it doesn't matter, in the sense that i will never ever look back to what had happen in the past, and I will look forward to all that will come, all the Visions place in me, and all the dreams I have to bring Heart of God Church and myself to another level. It's not like backsliders are not important, but I believe God wants us to start harvesting from the harvest field filled with new crops. Though things will be hard from now on, as long as I have God, I have the strength to go on. I will start believing in that.

Seek FIRST the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. - Matt 6:33

This was E-zone in the beginning of year 2007. Though the numbers have reduced greatly, but i will have faith that it will grow back to what it was before, or EVEN MORE, just in a matter of time. =)

I always wonder how i changed so much from the past till now and i always get one answer in the end... It's all God! haha, I cant imagine my life as it was in the past man. I mean, look at me in the pic. Haha. i got nothing to say.

And like I promised, a picture of my cousins. =) Cute aren't they? haha.

2008-06-17T09:20:00.000-07:00

It has been a fun day today and I know that in the future everyday will be a happy day for me. Haha, I just wanna start smiling for those around me, just be able to pass on every bit of excitement found in me about any events that's coming up. Haha.
Anw, in the day that have just passed, Tuesday, went out to have lunch with Harrold and all just to hang out. Met up with Elaine to her house to cook some stuff before heading to the park with Yeesiong and Brother Chee Yong, we got everything ready and just waited for the kids to come. The main part comes when all the kids arrive. We all played a few bonding games and all, after that we ate and the kids went home after that. Well, in this short 5-6 hours, I met alot of new kids and learnt alot of new things too. I always thought getting to know kids was difficult but if you play with them and really get to understand them and their needs, its pretty easy and fun. I love kids as, I feel that they have this heart of purity and innocence, that we can almost always be able to not worry about backstabbing and gossips from them. Anw, the teachers all had some fellowship when they left. We talked and joked about what happen and talk about visions we have. Yea, I just simply love my ministries!

Thats roughly what happen! =)

2008-06-16T09:58:00.001-07:00

Had a sudden urge to post again. HAHA! Had a great day at Royston's house as he had organised a BBQ for us. He invited secondary school friends and his poly friends to his house and there were a total of about 20 people squeezed into his house. Anw, i have to admit that his house is quite nice, the environment and all. =) Met a few new friends and all, Had fun by the poolside, but for some reason whenever i go to Royston's house for a party of some sort, i always leave with sort of an injury. HAHA!

Anw, reached home at about 12. Was reading the blog of a friend of mine. Her blog is like, evry post has a philosophy man. I found it quite meaningful as my idea of a blog is like that. LOL! I shall post like that soon. haha. I am not feeling too good now so i shall go sleep. I think i ate something wrong from Royston's house and that now i have the feeling that some "stuff" are goin to come out from both ends of my body. LOL! Nights people!

I want that confidence in me Lord,
I don't want to be afraid of what others think of me,
For You created me to be who I am.
I will not care what i am in others eyes,
for You are the one i chase after.
I pray that i am able to place all my worries aside,
and serve wholeheartedly in Your kingdom,
to be able to bring revival to the schools,
for you bible says:
Seek first the kingdom of God, and all these things shall be added to you.
I thank You for all my friends that i have,
for my family that i never knew how to cherish till now,
and for Great Pastors who always always think about us. =)
I thank you Lord and i pray all these in Jesus name,
AMEN!

2008-06-15T11:22:00.000-07:00

Let's talk about the school seminar. Man was it G-R-E-A-T, GREAT. With our associate angmoh pastor, Pastor Joakim! haha. In the first session, he preached about making some serious 'noise' in our schools and work places, doing things out of our comfort zone just to impact and change the life of our friends. I believe that with that sermon, many of us who have been dreaming of big things will all start to DO big things. haha. Second session was about Where can i Find Jesus. And we are able to find them in three key places, 1- in church, 2- in the next generation, 3- in people who needs our help. What really impacted me was the one about meeting Jesus in the next generation. Now i am goin to love my ministry Children Church even even more. haha. The third(&4) session were, outta the three of the sermons, the most powerful one. It was about living a life of Others! The story which Pastor Joakim shared, about this pastor on board the titanic, how he gave up his life just to save the lives of many. It really impacted us as, I feel that sometimes, we tend to be a little selfish, as after we receive Jesus into our lives, we are saved, but sometimes we don't feel like reaching out to others. It is like taking off in the life boat by yourself when you can turn back and save so much more people. I feel that, we have to be like the pastor, John Harper, who was on board the ship. Not literally, but mentally, in how he is willing to sacrifice his life, we must also be willing to sacrifice our finances and our time. =)

Anw, hung out with the CG after service. Had dinner and all then headed back to church to have some fun. =)

Lord, I pray that you would give me a peace in my mind,
so that I will not worry over little things.
I just lay that matter into Your hands.
Guide me through it.
I thank you Lord for all my friends,
In and out of church.
Lord, from now on, i will begin to take my schools
I pray Lord, that You will be with me all of my days.
I thank You Lord.
I pray all this in Jesus's name
AMEN!

2008-06-11T09:06:00.000-07:00

Hey hey, to any readers to my blog. LOL. Though i seriously think that there isn't any soul reading this blog of mine la. haha. Anw, wanted to blog a few days ago already actually but...haha. i was lazy again so well...
Lets pick up from Monday, the 2nd of June. Had my Thermo fluid test. Well, it was kinda ok except for the last question which cost a whole 25 marks. There were only 8 questions to that paper and the paper is upon a 100 marks. lol. After that, went home and slacked around as there was seriously nothing to do man. The next day, tuesday was Engineering math test. But seriously, it is just sec 3 A math so, i think i lost bout 2 marks? Wednesday was Aerospace Material and Process test. I mean, that test is all about memory work and i am cramming up my brain with 5 chapters worth of notes, including detailed graph and all, and guess what, i only studied for less than an hour the night before as i had to go down to yishun park for something impt. haha. well, you gain some you lose some. If by any chance, i would get a pass at max. LOL! Went to church for Basic Ministry Training. It was a general training to mold our hearts right for serving God. =) Nothing going on on thursday so i was actually planning to wake up to study before heading to church for my CG. Guess what, i woke up, turn on the comp and started playing. LOL. In the end nothing was accomplished. haha. Well, after CG i headed straight home to study and all. Woke up early on friday to prepare to go to school for test. Finished the test before the allocated time and, know what the best part was? I was 10 marks away from passing this freaking 749 marks paper. LOL! Anw, headed down to church for some zone event. Met with harrold and alvin for lunch before heading up. When we reached upstairs, they were playing the game "fill up the gap" with Furong as the game master. Furong was trying to act some English accent and all but well, had fun in the game, think that harrold and alvin had too. Later, we were split into our own groups and the group i was in was called kung fu panda. lol. We were playing a game call food cross or something like that as according to furong. Ask me if you wanna know more about it cause i am freaking lazy to type out how the game goes la. Went around the east coast region to get all those food stuff and all. In the end our group came in second. Yea, and we had our E zone revival night too. Garrett was preaching on the 4 different levels of knowing God. An impactful sermon as ever. haha. Know we are all aiming for the highest level, Be in the midst of the clouds man. YEA! Sat in for Pastor Che Ahn service on saturday. He shared many stories of healing in his own church and all. Some of them were very anointed. To end off, Pastor Che Ahn and his teamers prayed for the whole church. I got prayed for to, and it was exactly what i needed to hear, as a reminder. After the whole service and all my friends were all talking about how anointed Pastor Che Ahn is. haha. On sunday was Pastor Joakim's service. But we had the basic ministry training in the morning so, yea. Woke up quite early and reach just nice on the dot. haha. was 1 minute away to being late. During service Pastor Joakim preached about leaving our burdens before Jesus once again, no matter if we are saved or not, as Jesus gave up His life to redeem us. That just touch me as i began to thought of all the sins i have committed. Headed over to my cousins house after service to have a stay over there. Havent really spent time with them for such a long time already so i decided to stay over and have fun with them all over again. =) They used to cling onto me alot, but now i guess they are older already man. HAHA. Slept on the floor with my younger cousin. Man, i almost couldn sleep, i mean, my cousins hand was always on my side of the bed and i always have to adjust him back. What's worse is that when i was bout to drift of to sleep, his hand would swing over to my face and he would drag his hand up my face. LOL. In the end i slept till bout 12 plus and got laughed at him for sleeping till so late, when it was HIS fault. haha. I shall post a picture of my cute cousins when i have the time and find the picture. =) Anw, watched Kung Fu Panda with my cousins on monday and slept over till tuesday.

Tuesday,
Woke up, played abit till bout 1.30pm then i left and headed for Pasir Ris to get SOMETHING from SOMEONE!!! lol. Ok, and the whole recount of my 3 HOUR journey is, i took 154 from jurong and it took me bout 1 hour and 45 mins to reach eunos and from there i took 21 and it took me bout half an hour to reach Pasir Ris. After taking the gifts for the people whom's birthday are being celebrated that day from Fung Qi, I decided to take the train back as i will be late if i take the bus. In the end i reached Lavender on time, right smack 5 pm. So while i was waiting, i went to buy cakes for the birthday girls, and i went to buy some tidbits for later. So i thought when i return to the MRT station there would be at least 2-3 people there alrdy. Guess how many people i saw upon returning? NONE!!!! lol, so i waited till bout 5.45pm and made the decision that if no one comes by 6, i am goin to leave. Then right at 6, Elaine, Yvonne, sister Joyce and her niece reached. LOL. Irony that they are the earliest while being late. Anw, went back home, played with the teachers in the pool and all, jacuzzi-ed and bathed, then they all came up to my house to have dinner before heading off home. Now that i just rmb, i forget to take a picture from the outing. LOL! Anw, went home and did my workplan for BMT as homework.

Wednesday,
Woke up at 7.45am to prepare for BMT as i was called to reach earlier to help out in some stuff. Reach church at bout 10.15. Waited till 10.45 before Daniel came out and gave us instructions. I was suppose to do admin with May. Was quite fun. haha. Had the hour of power, followed by Garrett and Dominic sharing about what are our church built on, before Pastor How ended BMT with a powerful Son VS Servant Mentality sermon. BMT officially ended with the giving out of certificates. Man, this post is getting too long. I shall start a new one.

2008-06-02T09:03:00.000-07:00

What a great and hectic two weeks i had. haha. First was the week of RedRain. stayed in church till almost bout 1130pm before heading home for one who week till the last day of redrain on the 25 of May for all the re-cabling of everything and re-running of all our cables. On the last few days was all the run through. Right after that was children church camp, and though i cant make it for all of it, I made it for the revival night. It was a great service with a great word preached. =) It was very impacting to see all the kids life being touched at that instance. Tuesday, the 27th, was the only day i went home early and my parents were surprised to see me at home so early. LOL! On wed, went out for a cg/integration/birthday outing to Grandlink for a few games of dota and cs. haha. Was quite fun, playing this type of games with your friends and all. haha. Missed those sec sku days where we tried to go for lan almost every time we go out together. On thurs, went to sentosa after school for the secondary school camp. Went there to help out but in he end stayed there for bout 2 hours only. After that headed back to church for BM and later on, for a run through as Pastor Tan Ye Peng is coming to our church!!! Pastor Tan is the second man to Pastor Kong in City Harvest Church so we are really honored to have him come to our church to preach. =) so evryone on the ops side was saying, that we have to be CHC standard, everyone must rise up to that standard. Anw, run through ended at 11 plus. Next day, went to school and all, den went straight to church. Prepared for service and there was the cross light this service!! haha. service till bout 10 plus. packed up and debrief. I left halfway during debrief and still reach home at almost 12. lol. Had CCH duties on sat. Just after the camp and the amount of kids coming for service increased so much till the MPR was FULL!!!! haha. But one things during that day that didn work as per normal was the central air-conditioning. It wasn working and as we were playing games and having Praise and Worship, everyone was so wet as if they just came out from the bath without dryin up. lol. But even so, it was great. After the service was a short carnival, where we had games and all for the kids to play. Seeing how much fun the kids are having, made me feel that all the hardwork that all the teachers had put in was worth it. I mean, after all, we are there to bring joy to the kids. =) Sat in for service on Sun, Pastor Tan came in for service again! =) He preached about the 10 values we must have to be able to built something to last, a sermon which is part of the series that he made, Built To Last. It impacts us alot as the sermon is quite practical and it is based on the Ten Commandments. =)

Thats bout all the exciting things that have happened so far. haha. =)

Lord i thank you for the wonderful friends you have placed in my life,
I thank you for placing each one of them into my life at different intervals,
and i thank you for them being there at each different stages of my life,
to help me through and accompany me through this journey one Earth.
I thank you Lord.
I pray all this in Your precious name,
AMEN! =)

2008-05-11T09:10:00.000-07:00

Another week passed. Now things are going to get hectic for the next two weeks or so man, Red Rain is coming up (wooooooo, ...lol). Yea, and with that, there will be meetings, packing up of stuffs, testing out of some new stuff, so on and so forth. Tests and project works are starting to come up, well, it's been there quite long ago, just that i didn really bother to do it, till its almost times up. LOL! Well, the time has come to start rushing through things already. haha. Awww man, busy period this is. Never had i been this busy. LOL.

REDRAIN is coming to town. 24th and 25th of May
Venue at singpost paya lebar.
Tickets are free!
Contact me for details.
www.redrain.sg/

I have always wondered how my life would be like
If i hadn step into heart of God church.
Wondering, what i would be doing if i am not in church.
Wondering if i would ever be able to
meet these wonderfu friends that i have now?
Maybe not.
I thank You, for planning my life,
for putting me in hoGc.

2008-05-04T23:33:00.001-07:00

Awww man, it's so hard to maintain a blog. Even my best friend Harrold declared his blog inactive already. But I don't want to for mine. Cause i like to post from time to time. Sometimes I would have this urge to blog about something that happened or something i felt. So, yea. Anw, this blog is as good as dead cause not many of my friends know about it, doesn make much of a difference does it? Lol.
Well, the past one week was a hectic one. Last monday, had school all the way till 8 again, reach home at 9, washed up and eat till bout 10? lol. I mean, what else could i do? haha. On tuesday, went out for dinner with Soo Yee after school at bugis with Hong Kai, Jing Fen, Siok Mei, May and Zi Ang. Had a fun time at Miss Clarity Cafe, though i must say that its not cheap. lol. Anw, something funny happened to Zi Ang. His ice-cream contained tissue in it, so when we called the waiter over, he tried another mouth and he went like ' bleah, i think i ate another piece of tissue' LOL, i mean, if you found out there i, STOP EATING!!!! and Hong Kai finally opened up abit, haha, and got to know him more. As a person who thinks alot. LOL!
Went out on wednesday after school to Douby Ghout to catch Ironman with Harrold and Royston. Pretty good movie with all the effects and all. haha. Though something bad did happen after the movie. Think i shouldn mention it, cause it would be painful reminder to that fellow man. Well, labour day followed on thursday, and i slept till about 12 in the afternoon before waking up and getting ready for AI conference later on. AI was great with all the testimonies of how God can change people life in the business world too. =) Was particularly impacted by Nicole Yee's testimony. Went home during the break and didn stay for the 3rd session. Had to rush home to do my Song Plan. Rushed down to church on friday right after school. Waited in school for May and Josh as they were goin down too for New Gen meeting. The two of them were so slow. When i reached the bus stop, one bus 154 passed and i thought May has boarded without waiting. I called her and she said she was on her way. Saw her not long after and she said she had to go to the loo. Well, she went, and soon after, i saw Josh and he went to the loo too, and right after May came out, just as another 154 pulled up at the bus stop. After it passed, i told May i was goin to church for duties and she was like. "!!!!!Why didn you board the bus first?!!!" Lol, i mean, i was holding on to her laptop and all?... Anw, had a tiring day and the headphones that i used weren helping at all. Stay home for saturday as i had to go celebrate my grandfather's birthday. Met my younger cousins after sooooo long and was glad to see them =) Slept at 6 in the morning and woke up at 12 in the afternoon to prepare to go out with a bunch of people from 4G, which includes Delwyn, Sisheng, Derek, Gentson, QingBin, Alexius, Daryl. Had fun and joke around with them again. Was glad that the outing was planned. Missed some of the times we had in secondary school yea? oh well, one week later, which is now, here i am sittin in my tutorial class postin. LOL. well, lets wait till sometime when i want to post again then =)

Somtimes the conceptions of somethings that we have
may not be the same as others.
Everyone wants others to think their way.
But shouldn we look it from another point of view
and try to think it in the way our friends want to?
Wouldn that make things better? lol.

2008-03-31T05:25:00.001-07:00

LOL!
Its been more than 3 months since i last posted. Where should i begin man?

Well, lets start with easter! Had fun during easter, church was having something like a settlers cafe going on. There was also karoaoke going on in the mpr man. Everything was so fun. Bryan was singing most of the songs btw. haha. Lotsa people wants him to sing with them. Kinda popular i guess. Well, as for me, i sang one song when my voice was bout to be gone, and all i could say was, i think it was bad. Haha. Did duty the next two days. On saturday was children church, it was kinda fun as they have this carnival going on and stuff, besides that, i collected all those freaking cans for nothing. cause in the end i didn even set up my station. Haha! But it was fun, seeing kids feeling the presence of God and having fun after everything. I feel that that is the best thing in children church! Well, on sunday, i had live feed duty. Can help feeling tired man. But i think i did a great job on sunday so well, i am happy with myself. =)
the following monday? hmmm, i went downstairs to work out a bit, climb 30 floors of stairs and swan for bout 30 mins? lol. Guess i was really bored.
The next day was a tuesday, so made my way down to nee soon east park. Decided to take a bus down to yishun as i it was cheaper and i thought i could get there on time. But guess what, i was caught up in a stupid traffic jam on the express way. Guess what the reason was? It was cause they were maintaining the plants by the roadside. lol. I freakingly have no idea why it would jam but i am guessing its cause people are tryin to get a glimpse of what is happening, thinking in their mind that there may be an accident. LOL!
Anws, went to ngee ann on wednesday for the camp. Before going, i was getting the jitters man. I dont know why but whenever i am bout to go to a camp, i cant help feeling the I would do something stupid. Lol!
Still i went. After my dad dropped me off, i made my way into the hall, and i felt stupid enough. Cause it was like i went in there alone, sat alone and didn really talk to anyone else when others were, probably cause there were the GLs with them tryin to get them to talk? So i just sat there tryin to look like i am occupied with my phone and all. After that we gathered and was waitin for our turn to register and in the meanwhile they were teaching us songs for the campfire and cheers for the camp. When i went up to register, they told me that i was in a group called Kappa Tau 4 ( cheers and claps*), and i was momentarily stun. No offenses. Cause the day before i was watching an anime and someone was called a kappa, which in japanese, i think means japanese water imp. Lol! Well, heck with it. I kinda found the activities they were doin to stall time for the registration quite boring , xept the drums thingy, cause they were practically doing nothing. lol. Well, got to know Samuel from sass during that time. After the registrations, we were all split into our own subgroups. Went to sports complex to put our stuffs down, have lunch and all. Then attendance was taken. After that we played some ice breakers. Cant really rmb whats after that though. But in the night was the night walk. It was, alright i guess. Was abit spooked. We were sent in a group of four. The first thing we had to pass was this long corridor with this lady in white with long hair standing at the end. We were looking for a way round it, but then we rmb that they asked us not to stray of course,so we continued. At first we though the lady was a fake. So we continued walking and when we took the turn, she suddenly raised her hand and ask us to stop and read something outside the metal toilet door aloud. When we started reading, people in the toilet started knocking on the door. lol, well, i found it kinda expected. Anw, after reading 4 lines or so, she asked us to stop and to move on. Erm, next was, if i am not wrong, the split the four of us into 2 by 2. The other two went first, so the two of us behind spent time tryin to keep our heads of things. When we got to the area, this guy tried told us we had to look for this particular GL in the field opposite us. We looked and looked and continued asking where, he kept pointing to three lampost. Well, he manage to divert my attention and i was like "which one?" then suddenly something dropped from the top and it almost hit my head. I had to admit i was spooked by that the most. After that one, we continued down the small corridor. Initially we thought that people were hiding in the ventilators, so knocked it. But there wasn, so we carried on walking. To think there was someone hiding in the corner and he jumped out at us. lol. I was more shocked than spooked. lol. After that we caught up with the other two and the four of use made our way together. We saw a GL ahead and he asked us to wait for abit. After that he brought us into a toilet and said we have to go inside. We were like "WHAT?". lol. Anw, when we walk deeper into the toilet, someone tried to spook me from the back. Inside the toilet was this "little girl" with a rag door. Her face was covered with her hair. Anw, the thing was that she wants us to get her rag doll's head from someone inside the cubicle. I was initially afraid, but still did. There was this guy in the toilet. And he was in a funny pose. was it meant to be funny? lol. Anw, he asked me to flush the toilet. Natrually i would think something was going to pop out so after i flushed it i moved back outta the cubicle, then someone grabbed my shoulder. Thinking it was my friend i turned round to look but found myself looking into another guy's face. I think that was to scare me but rather, i was lost at the point and wasn spooked at all. LOL! anw, That sortta mark the end of the walk. We made our way back to the lecture theatre and waited for the rest to be back. So the day officially ended at 4 in the morning? lol. Well, nothing much for the second day. All just stations and more station games. Couldn rmb in details. Third day, lol, dam, i cant rmb. Only rmb what happened in the night, went crazy with all the music and stuff. Didn really sleep, cause on one hand, i was afraid to sleep as there is this crew that goes around writing stuff on people's hand and applyin whipp cream and toothpaste on people, while on the other hand, wanted to have some fun. I fell asleep for bout 5 minutes, and guess what, when i woke, i found whipp cream on my left arm and toothpaste on my right. Guess what triggered me to wake? My friend thought it wasnt enough and squeezed some toothpaste down my neck. LOL! well, manage to catch bout 2 hours of sleep. 4th day, of to a lecture theatre to have some presentation bout the closing of the camp. They made evrything sound so emo, sounds as though they are seeing us for the last time man, as though we were graduating that day itself. lol! anw,packed, took photos, grabbed T-shirts and stuffs, then we were off. Didn joined them for lunch. Was too tired and didn wanna spent money. LOL! Alright, that's bout it for the camp.
As for sunday, went to church as per normal for a normal sunday service, just the they were celebrating my birthday that day. Fung Qi actually told me before hand so i was like asking, "can i announce it myself, you know, like 'hey everyone,today we are celebrating my birthday'" haha. Well, in the end i didn. As for today, monday, itself, it was like the previous monday, so nothing much too.
Anw, thats bout all there is. =)

To be surrounded by your friends. To feel the care you friends and family have to give.
To have your friends and family celebrate you birthday.
I thank Lord for these things that I will treasure in my life! =)

2007-12-13T09:41:00.000-08:00

I have not been posting for a very long time again. Maintaining a blog is such tough work.

Anw, VBS have finally ended and, i am somewhat sad and relieve. It's sad cause there will not be VBS till next year alrdy, and it's a relieve that i can finally rest a bit more than when i was in VBS. VBS have brought us as a whole church to a whole new level man and i believe that service this weekend will be more powerful cause the atmostphere will change to a better one =) During this VBS, Pastor How, Pastor Lia, Pastor David Shearer, Pastor Kevin Lu and some ZLs have been preaching. Its was a fruitful two weeks man.
There was one thing that happened when i was on camera duty... My wire hooked onto one of the mikes at the drun platform, and i didn notice it so i walked of the platform. I was thinking how come the wire had suddenly become heavier. I look back just in time to see the mike swaying, but thankfully it didn drop. KS was looking at me with a shocked look. That kinda of face that says, omg, lucky it didn happen.... lol.
Through this VBS, i have learnt that the smallest details of things can determine the destiny of others. So, yea, lets pay more attention to the things and people around us. Lets be a living testimony and impact the world on what youths can do!
Oh, i cant wait to have another cg outing or better, a zone outing. There's not been an outing for sucha long time alrdy and i feel it is needed now cause more people has been added to the family and that it is time to bond once again like last year. I rmb last year, we would go out on zone outings often and cg outings like almost every week. Lets all get back into that spirit man.

Sometimes there are things that we really want to say,
but i think it is better that we keep them to ourselves and wait for a better time,
as there may be a dire consequence to what we would want to say.

2007-11-29T08:25:00.000-08:00

Hi all, here i am blogging after not postin for bout two weeks now. Anw, lets start of with wat happen last sunday, the 25th of november.
Well, its like any normal sunday, i wake up, prepare and go for church. The difference today is that it is camp day and I didnt know it starts at 9. When i woke up and turned my phone on, i saw 8 messages and I sorta know something was wrong. I saw JiaYang's message reminding me that the camp starts at 9. I went like ' OH MY!!!' " I rushed around the house like mad tryin to get evrything ready. Didnt have much to pack though cause i was not allowed to stay. I rushed down to church asap. All i can say is that i missed out on all the fun that they had in the morning, and i know that i belong to the blue group named EXPLODE. We went for lunch and then back for service. Service that day wasa great. I was reminded of the times in the past where I first met Jesus, and of the first time i went to heart of God church. I was thanking God for those times that He had given me when pastor suddenly asked us all to thank God for the past. Give thanks for the past and have faith for the future =).
After service, there was a short break before the camp resumed. There was a game planned. Its sorta like a race to the finish type. Each person in the group would have to complete a course to get a slip of paper with some words on it. These words would form a sentence. My team came in second. After bout 3 groups finish the race, we started throwing flour at each other. We were asked to stop and thats when we realised the mess we have created. We all helped to clean up the place and even D zone helped too. I went home after the cleaning up part and pursuaded my dad to let me sleep overnight for the next day. He agreed to it and so i was excited.
On monday, i went there early and saw that most of the guys are still asleep. After some workout and breakfast, we all spent some time with God. It was a great one hour as i begin to learn what God has in stall for me. After that was some dirty game and water bomb throwing. We all washed up after that and prepared for the revival night. The revival night meeting was simply awesome. Garrett preached a powerful sermon and shared many great testimonies. I am inspired by the testimonies man. I am going to be a man for others =]
The third day of the camp. Evrything was down to cleaning up and packing up. After cleaning and packing, there was a briefing for the 'Amazing Race' at pasir ris park. There's 10 tokens to be collected for each team. this was to be done before 430. I kinda forget what did we start but anw, my team got second again. There after we went for bbp and east coast park. This was why i went home quite late, but i dun mind it cause its been a long time since i had sucha a fun time.
The next day was wednesday. I went out with Harrold, Alvin, Royston and Daryl Tan. We went to catch the movie Enchanted at 720 so in the meantime we went to lan. There was an arguement on what to play but we stayed for 3 hours though. Went for dinner then the movie. They movie was nice though the storyline was quite predictable. I would give it bout 3/5. Went for a short game of pooling then home i went. lol.
Then it was thursday. I went out withh Ellene, Bryan and Maria. We went to catch Hero, the japanese lawyer show. The show was quite nice and I would give it bout 3.5/5. Went for dinner after that and chatted for bout an hour (i think) . Maria had to rush home and the three of us were almost heading home alrdy but decided to go for another movie at douby ghout cathay. We watched Hitman. The main character is so dam freaking good at combat man. Its as if he knows evrything. lol. I would give it bout a 4/5. Anw, that's all for this week then.

Sometimes we may feel left out by the group
but it all depends on how we see it.

2007-11-16T07:47:00.000-08:00

Lets see where to begin... hmmm...
Yesterday I went to sengkang to buy something, wanted to meet some friends to but they were too lazy to move from their very comfortable nests so....in the end I bought what i needed and left for vivo..
No matter how many shops there are at vivo, i still find it freaking boring. lol. Anw, waited from 12 to bout 1.30pm for my friends to arrive and we went to catch the movie 'Stardust'. It was a nice movie =) After tat we kinda like walked around aimlessly till bout 8+ before startin to make our way home.

Went back to school today for the PAE thingy. though i cannot go anywhere for the firs one month or something lidat. lol. Went straight to church after that and waited for bout 4 hours till 2 before my cg started. after that i had a crashcourse on the thing that i missed out on live feed in these four or five months tat i haven been on duty cause of the Os... Well, we seriously missed out lotsa things but we will all wok hard to fight back for the lost time.
Well, visitors will be expected tomorrow and after that gotta go attend children church.
Hmmmm, today seems like a bad day... The water pump of my block is spoilt and water cant be sent up. So i cant wash my retainers... So I'll just have to wait till they come and fix the problem then..lol....

If you are feeling a minute of sadness, you are depriving yourself of a minute of happiness.
So lets all be happy people man.

2007-11-14T06:04:00.000-08:00

Well... I dont think i will be posting regularly cause i havent been in the habit for about a year now.
Anw, i will try to post as regularly as i can ok? =)
At long last, O's has finally ended. Well, at least we have about 3 more months before the dreaded day comes. Let's all try to have all the fun we can have in these 3 months guys !
Been bballing these few days after O's, at sengkang with a few friends. It's fun while playing with friends. But a problem is, i am always caught between friends... As in, like i promise one group i will hang out with them the next day. But when i reach home, another group will come informing me about an outing that they are gonna have and wondered if i am available to join. lol. I guess i will have a long busy holiday witin for me ahead with full scheds man...
Oh, and since i am so free nowadays in the night, anyone have any animes or shows that you might wanna introduce to me? i can like finish one anime of bout 23 episodes in less then 3 days now lol...Movies are welcome too. lol. I've recently borrowed the movie 'Secret' from Gentson, and it's a nice show, at least it was nice to me. People who love romance shows may wanna try it. =) although the ending is sort of in between sad and happy...lol
Caught two movies in two weeks.. One was 'Mr. Woodcock' and the other was 'The Game Plan'. They are both nice movie but i feel 'The Game Plan' is the nicer one. I missed the movie that i wanted to catch, The Seeker... but nvm, there are lots more movies out there man... like Stardust and The Golden Compass.. of course there are much more but these 2 are the ones tat i would definitely wanna catch. haha...

Having met you, is already a very inconceivable moment....

2007-11-02T06:02:00.000-07:00

ok....so here's me blogging again from ppl asking me to blog from my tag box (though it was like half a year ago?...lol) anw...i will try to update as much as possible. =]

I have just deleted my previous blog. So this is the first post tat i am posting after half a year of MIA from blogspot.
Ooook...so lets just start with what happened recently.:
Os have jus entered the 4th last paper for me. Currently i am doing fine for it, except for eng paper and geog paper which i think i screwed up big time.. Well, at least i think E math was not a very big problem though. Went to Jason's for four days in a row jus to keep me on track with what i have been missing out on. The last lesson was pretty whacky as i neva did anything much but talk to the rest of the group tat was there with me... Well, cant exactly blame us....it was our last lesson there for the secondary years, and we do not know where we will end up with our results... so yea..
Ok...so far the papers that have past are :
A math
Sci(chem)
comb. humans(geog)
E math
English
Chinese
Physics
Sci(bio),
and the remaining papers are :
social studies,
comb. sci MCQ
& physics MCQ.

Well...secondary school has passed like a breeeze. Its been four years now and with new friends...well, we had our fair share of hardships that we faced together and the arguements we had.. but still it is the past and let all try to be friends.
To anyone tat i have annoyed and irritated over the passed years, let me apologize to ya.

To anyone reading this post... Let me just say tat wadeva is over is over, lets look forward to wats there for us in the future =]

Enjoys the hols !

The future is what we make them to be.
Do not have the thinkin to see to believe,
But work hard for it and Believe to See !